Failing to Take Care of Number One
As a mom we often spend our days taking care of other people’s needs. I’m a nurturer at heart and I’ve always prided myself on being a great caretaker for those I love. But here’s the thing….turns out, I'm not so great at taking care of myself.
Life has been really busy lately as we get ready for our big move to Guatemala and as one would expect anxiety and stress come with the changes. I’m really good at buckling down and getting shit done when I’m stressed. I’m talking lists for everything, calendar organized and color coded, I’m great at over committing myself trying to fit in as much done as possible in a short period of time. Our bodies are funny though; they will only put up with being ignored for so long. And my body, well it decided it needed a break.
So first I got a cold, just a little cold. I was sick for about a week, pushed fluids but other than that didn’t really change anything I was doing. Felt better for a few days, and boom, another cold. And not just any cold, an epic cold. We were traveling and trying to get things set up for the move so I rested a little; but, mostly just thought it would work it’s way through my body. We kept all our plans, dinners with friends, concerts, staying up too late etc. Then one day I started feeling really crappy. Fever, tooth pain, pressure in my face and I knew, it had turned into a sinus infection.
After starting the antibiotics I only got worse. Let me tell you this knocked, me, out! I’m talking in bed for 4 days straight. Up for only 30 min at a time and sometimes taking 5 or 6 hour naps. (Thank goodness Joe was home to be with the kids)
Here’s the thing about getting that sick. It forces you to slow down. Instead of slowing down earlier in the month when I first got sick I powered through. But my body pumped the breaks. It forced me to stop since I chose not to listen. Resting that many days was hard. And don’t get me wrong I love to lounge…but I am not good at resting. I had stuff to do, people to see, lists to make, items to check off those lists! Alas, all I could do was rest.
I’ve now been sick for 4 weeks. I’m getting better every day and I’ve learned a lot about myself.